I have been here almost a year ...
Almost a year and I haven't been incredibly mindful or dedicated to my blog. Almost a year of me sitting here daily looking at the same desk each and every day and yet I barely put fingers to keys.
While the ideas have been nonstop - I hit a wall when my trademark application was rejected and I needed to jump through hoops to refile and defend the honor of "Deferring Zen". Staying true to form I deferred my response until it was almost too late.
But not TOO late as I'm back in business
What has changed: I had knee surgery and can move again (amazing), I changed jobs this summer, I traveled to Iceland and Ireland, I was able to move a good bit of my Dad's furniture to my home (heart full), and Frosty is now the size of a Fiat causing mass destruction and me to doubt the existence of God.
I just read that out loud to her and she either understood me or isn't feel well after eating my Bose headphones ...
What has NOT changed: ME ... I stopped meditating, I didn't really change my eating habits, I didn't go to yoga or pilates like I had promised myself, I didn't make myself a priority as I had hoped and I am still struggling to find time to do things for myself.
There is however great change in the air as of late! I feel amazing, my inner voice has become much kind(er), I have started to go to pilates and yoga, I am insanely focused on my eating habits and I'm finding balance to do the things that I know I need to do in order to personally thrive.
Maybe it's because I switched jobs - I went from Finance (happy) to IS (barf) back to Finance (sigh - so so happy). Maybe it's because I have the happiest kid on the planet who is healthy, happy and brings such joy to my life, as long as I don't look at his bathroom or his closet floor.
Overall, I think I finally feel that I'm where I belong. Not just at work but in my life and that feels pretty amazing.
More to come ...